That is what I am telling you that I did not want to talk anything about my wife. In fact, in the first place I did not want to talk that much. I was only coaxed and somehow forced to even speak. I was sleeping. I was woken up. I was feeling the pain. I did not want to say anything about my wife and children, you see, because anybody I saw at that time I just regarded that person as an enemy, and I did not want to say anything at that time really.